always him

It's been two failed adoptions... thinking it was him... to figure out that it wasn't him.  That both of those sweet babies were not meant to be.  It wasn't that easy to wrap your brain around.  Every second of the past two months have felt right.  I think it literally took both of those failed adoptions to realize that.

The first one... none of our hearts were ready.  It didn't feel right.  It was chaotic and not right.  The second one... felt right because it was literally thrown in our laps.  No.  It wasn't right.  We called baby in both failed adoptions "Titus".  Well, this is no longer Titus.  His name is Trey and he was meant to be here.  He was chosen before time.  We were chosen before time.  It always feels right when you were chosen by God.