how great thou art

Right before we got any news about whether or not Trey was ours or not, I kind of flipped out.  I was just trying to get it out of my head.  'There's a baby staying at my house.  He is not my brother yet.  He might leave tonight.  My heart will break.  But that's so selfish.  How can I think that.  This doesn't make any sense.'  It needed to stop.  Someone told me that God won't give me more than I can handle.  It got me thinking.

What can I handle, anyways?  If He took Trey away from me, could I handle it?  That's one of those questions that I'd rather not answer, ever.  But to have that anxiety for 72 hours, of not knowing whether he was ours or not, killed me.  I almost couldn't handle it.  

But then I listened to a version of How Great Thou Art by Carrie Underwood that she did a few years ago.  That song and her voice has this way of touching me.  I replayed it eleven times until I got the news.  That was when everything crazy happened.  I got 217 notifications on Facebook.  Everyone was flipping out.  It was real.  He provided.  He gave us what we prayed for, and everyone was so ecstatic.  He didn't take Trey away from me, and maybe that's because I couldn't handle it if He did.  All I know is, he is here today and everything it took to get here was worth it. 

"Then sings my soul, my savior God to Thee, how great Thou Art, how great Thou Art."